Tag Archives: superhero

Home!

13 Aug

Interesting concept…”home”! I for one have no “home”. I think. Or do I? Or do I not? I have been a traveler for so very long, a traveler visiting life with no “home”. A skin color, a “history”, a perceived connection to past events makes for a “home”. I don’t know. Or do I? I ask, I wonder, I feel. Awww, but is that it? “Home” is a feeling, not a place. A feeling brought on by feelings. Darn feelings. xoxo

Advertisements

I Was Once A Great Warrior! Superhero and Problem Solver to All!

21 May

I was once a great warrior! The problem with taking a warrior out of the war is that he is lost.

For as long as I can remember I was great in intense situations. Always the one who stepped up to take on the crises, the danger, the bully, the out of body situation, with a clear head and decisive action! I was good! I was the soldier, the leader who could identify “in slow motion” what was needed and decisively direct others and act myself in a swift way to a positive calm outcome!

I was a warrior! Superhero!

And with the few of us in life who have that metal edge, when moments of being not needed to save the world, called into action, “downtime”!…….we lose our edge! We fall into depression and self destruction. We isolate ourselves, for our former warrior lifestyle was fed by directing others to solve the task at hand, the crisis.

Without the crisis we are very disappointed in humanity. People are weak. People suck.

‘Rambo First Blood’ was all about this. “Back there I used to be responsible for dozens of the best men, and million dollar machinery, back here I am nothing”!

‘Apocalypse Now’, when Martin Sheen was drunk in his dirty little bedroom, and his higher ups came to find him is another good example of a warrior in down time!

‘Patton’, when George C. Scott said, “I’d be proud to lead you guys in battle, anytime, anywhere”!

I don’t have any “larger than life” media type credentials in my past which would distinguish me to someone who does not know me as a warrior, and someone who has “the edge” in life. Other than those that knew me and relied on me to solve their life problems. I was an athlete in High School and College and always won the game with a winning home run or winning sack of the quarterback. I was the one who people pulled into the bathroom at parties for me to solve some issue. I was the one when fights were about to break out would step in and take on or diffuse the aggressor no matter his size or the situation. After college I entered the business world, and I was always the one to tackle the largest, most stressful crisis or most difficult customer. I did the dirty work that no one else wanted to do. In life, I have been the one given the task to tell others their family member died. I have been the one to tell girlfriends and boyfriends, husbands and wives, their significant other doesn’t want them anymore. I have called CEO’s out of the blue and crashed Presidential candidate meetings and had discussions with world leaders and policy advisers of Israel and other middle eastern countries leaders. I have dated super-models, Sports Illustrated Swimsuit edition models, Ambassadors daughters, Kings granddaughters, Senators daughters, Professional sports legends daughters, and have lived life like few others!

It has been some time since I was in the “war”, and able to be me! Not a military war, but the war of life. It is like I was captured by the enemy and the enemy has kept me in solitary confinement!

There is no conclusion to the blog post as the journey is not over which only comes in death. Maybe a “war” will rear it’s ugly head and I’ll be called back in action! I can only wish not! For, I believe in the good. The good in people and all humanity. But, I know differently. People are bad for the most part. I wish it were different. Those that have, want more. Those that have not, want more. It is a very ugly want, take, want, take world. I don’t want to be part of it. But I am!

“A man with no purpose, is a man waiting to die” ~ Earth Zebra

I was once a great warrior!

“No Matter What!”

22 Nov

NO MATTER WHAT!

Other than myself, I have never found anyone to exhibit a “No Matter What” characteristic and way about life! Better known as “NMW” for those of us who are cool and know about LOL, OMG, BFF’s, and all the lingo of modern coolness. OMG did I JST, NW, WTF has come over me!

Best to define it first:
* To be true to another “No Matter What!”
What this means is not just the obvious of a romantic partner. It is for any relationship, a way of life, family, a code, a badge earned, best friends, a trusted way of interacting in life with everything we come in contact with. It is about anything other than ourselves. It is the most unselfish (insert anything) way of approaching something other than ourselves!

Trust me, I’ve looked and looked!! I’ve posted bat signals in the sky, personal ads in newspapers personal sections for “Man seeks Pina Colada’s, Getting Caught in the Rain and a NMW’s Character”. I’ve written graffiti on bus stop benches with my personal email address and even once wrote a letter to Santa Claus one year not so long ago, to no avail. “No Matter What”, only I possess it, I have concluded. Not even Santa could find another but me, for on Christmas morning I discovered my letter with return personal penmanship from Santa on the bottom, next to a half eaten cookie and half drank milk glass saying “look in the mirror pal, what do you expect of me, miracles?”! Geee, thanks Santa, appreciate the advice! I guess maybe I will have to write Mother Nature next for an answer!

I see in the movies, relationships with NMW (No Matter What!) characteristics of it’s stars, happening all the time on the screen and TV. Is this where my “expectations” have gone awry, for the movies are not real life and I’ve twisted what I expect of real life into something that doesn’t exist? But that can’t be true, as I am here! I am not a movie script. I have not been invented by fantasy of a screen writer!

Sometimes I think I am part of a leper colony when I do bring it up….a 3 legged centipede who resides at a rocking chair factory! Why is that? Well, it is because the society we live in accepts less worthy characteristics that 99.9999999999999999999991 % of the people in this world have and if you ask a lump of coal why all rocks are can’t be the Star of Africa, you can be sure it is going to say something to legitimize it’s own worthiness in this world. You can’t ask the fox, in this world, if the chickens are safe.

I will keep searching for another person in life who also has the “No Matter What” gene within them but I’m skeptical about the chances of finding them. It’s ok, the Star of Africa shines brightly enough to light up so much, and so do I!

“To find another who cares about you ‘No Matter What’ is a rare thing indeed” ~ Earth Zebra