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CASEY ANTHONY Not Guilty Verdict Correct! Inside Casey’s Mind – 6 Months After the Verdict!

10 Feb

Lets not forget that Casey Anthony is NOT anything other than a real person and reads your comments!

This is a girl who is just like you and me. We are here. We do our best in life. We try to gain our parents respect.

It has now come to light in the court appointed psychologists transcripts that Casey was raped at a party a few years earlier which produced the birth of Cayley. Casey was raped when drugged unconscious and this explains everything!

Casey Anthony, on the surface, appears to have done a lot of crazy things, but as the real facts now dribble out6 months after the verdict, it makes perfect sense!

All a person has to do, is put yourself in her position and it’s not so difficult for a rational thinking person to come to the conclusion she deserves her Not Guilty verdict! I know there are many out there who can’t get past the media’s twisting of the truth, the hot shot media jockeys sensationalizing this story for every rating dollar, but the facts are the facts. Casey Anthony did not kill her daughter and those are the facts.

Here is why……

#1.)
* “Seduce Her with Chloroform” searches on her computer.
* Father of Caylee not told to parents.
* Pregnancy hidden.
* Aloofness and secretiveness with her parents when it comes to Cayley.

When she saw her boyfriend post on MySpace the photo about Chloroform, she searched for it on the computer to see if maybe this is what happened to her when she was raped several years earlier. It makes complete sense when you are raped and a child is had from the rape, that you would try to hide it. The traumatic guilt of not knowing how you got pregnant would more than cause you to be secretive about who the father is and the child.

#2.) A fantasy job at Universal Studios.
Suppose all of your life you have been told by your mother that you are a failure. Suppose all of your teenage years, your dad molested you, making you question your worth as a human being. Suppose you were then drugged, and raped at a party and got pregnant. Suppose you had an cool job at Universal Studios and then got fired. How the heck are you going to come home and tell mom and dad that you failed again, “in their eyes”? and got fired! You won’t. So you lie about it and keep going with that lie as far as you can.

#3.) Zanny the Nanny
Again, your family dynamic is such that your mother tries to run every aspect of your life. She belittles you, berates you, and your father is the guy who you and he have a dark little secret together. You have a fake job, you feel you are a complete loser at this point, and just need some time to get away from your parents home once in awhile. So, one day when mom is giving you sh*t again about having to always take care of “your child”, you make up something to give you a little breathing room. you tell her you are doing very well at work, got a promotion, and can now afford a Nanny. Your mom is proud of you for finally getting your act together and that makes you very happy! You aren’t doing anything all day, so you just keep telling her you are going to work and Zanny the Nanny has Cayley. You come up with the name Zanny as short for Zanex because your mom needs to “Chill” and stop giving you sh*t! Heck, the job lie worked, so go with a nanny lie too. Makes perfect sense.

#4.) The Day Caylee Dies in the Pool
Let’s say you are home with your Dad. Of course Dad is the one who has always been the one to be the “Master of ‘Family’ Secrets” as he and you have had a big one for a very long time. Also, Dad used to be a cop and knows how to handle a good cover-up should you ever need one. Mom leaves the ladder up the night before, Caylee climbs in without a life jacket and drowns. Dad finds her, you come out of the house to find Dad in tears, and the dramatic next few hours begin. Dad says, there is no way we can call the police. Maybe George and Casey were having another one of their private secret moments and are not watching Caylee. Whatever was distracting George and Casey from watching Caylee, if even anything, Caylee drowned that morning. Kids sometimes just get out of your sight for a moment and that’s enough time for something tragic to happen. George takes over, and in a typical belittling, controlling, family way, says “you Casey are going to be to blame for this. Your mother is going to blame you and never ever forgive you”! George and Casey are terrified of what could come next if they call the police. Everything about their life will be exposed. It will be found out the sexual abuse that has taken place. Casey and George realize she will be charged with manslaughter! Cindy will never forgive either of them. There is no option to call the police. George must do something! So, he does. He takes Caylee’s body, dresses her, wraps her up in a blanket, puts her in a trash bag, and puts her in Casey’s trunk. Time is too short to dispose of the body and this is the only option. He tells Casey to act normal. Do not come home tonight. Drive the car away from the home and act normal. Act normal. Act normal or else we both will be exposed!

#5.) The Next 30 days
* Casey and George hatch a plan
* Casey continues her fake life
* George tells Casey to stay away from her mom
* Act normal. Act normal. Act normal.
* Dump the body, quick

With Caylee in the trunk, Casey has no other option but to align herself with her Dad. She continues to go about life in a normal way. Fake, all-be-it but normal for Casey. She compartmentalizes and hides her pain, which she has done all of her life. It is normal for her. Casey feeds mom a steady stream of Bullsh*t each day. She hangs out, goes out, and by all means does not go home! George realizes that the body is going to start stinking pretty soon, so he arranges with Casey for he and her to dump the body someplace. Casey and George say their goodbyes to Caylee. George knows that bugs are going to get in the bag and puts duck tape over Caylees mouth and nose. Casey puts a heart on it and they both dispose of the body in the trash bag just as they have with previous family burials of beloved pets.

#6.) Cindy Anthony Has Had Enough!
* George can’t handle Cindy’s pressure and neither can Casey!
* Casey ditches the car
* George is folding like a tent, they fight about it under the pressure.
* The plan unravels and the police enter the picture!

This is where everything starts heading down hill for George and Casey. They are fighting, and cracking under the stress. Cindy is full force against both. Where is Caylee? Where is Casey? George is doing his best to divert and keep Cindy calm but she’s not having any of it. Casey is staying as far away as she can. Casey runs out of gas and shows up at the home when she knows only George is there. George knows Casey’s car is a problem. He tells her to ditch it after he smells the problem when Casey runs out of gas. They will tell everyone it ran out of gas and got stolen. But, the car is towed to a yard and George is forced to go get the car. He had expected the police to smell the smell and say, holy-moly we have solved the case! George tried to throw Casey under the bus, but his plan backfired and he was forced to ‘Go Get The Car’ and bring the secondary crime scene back to the crime scene (even though it was not a crime but an accidental drowning). So, now Cindy takes over!! Casey is arrested, but not George! George stand by and hopes to heck his daughter doesn’t spill the beans about their “relationship”. (George later in this saga tries to kill himself).

#7.) Every Man for Himself the Body is Missing
Enter Roy Kronk to the picture. Roy Kronk finds the bag and knows he is going to be “famous”, “rich” and be able to find a new life in his fame.
Roy Kronk moves the body and waits for the right time, but the police ignore him. He eventually forces the issue and the body is found where Roy put it.

#8.) Casey’s Jail House Video’s
Casey has taken it this far and she and Dad have a very “unique” bond from the sexual “relationship”. She’s not going to lose the love of her mother and father who is all she has left. She continues to tell her mom what she wants to hear. She does not want to lose the only love she has. A child’s desire to be loved by her parents are over-whelming because she has been wanting that for all her life and never been given it!

#9.) The County Prosecutors satisfy the Media’s and People’s desire to “Burn a Witch” at the Stake!
Even if it is not true. They manufactured a case of nothingness because you can only take BS facts so far! They lost because the jury saw through their BS. 84 Times! 84 Times! 84 Times! They saw the book deals, their Hollywood Stardom and talk shows on the horizon! Same with all their witnesses! Fame got the best of them and the jury saw their true motivation.

#10.) Casey Anthony! Justice is served!
Casey was given a gift by having this so publicized because if this were you or me, any common person, we would not have received a fair trial and found Guilty!

Things have settled down now, 6 months later, and I just hope our country and judicial system has learned something from their rush to judgment….but I doubt it.

The world is a very cruel place and innocent people go to jail all the time. Casey Anthony was one of the lucky ones because for once, justice gave the right outcome based on the FACTS and not anything else!

Good job Defense Team!

As they said on the Kardashians, “Kid tested, Mother approved”!

EZ

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Casey Anthony Video Diary Leaked – OFFICIAL STATEMENT

5 Jan

Official EarthZebra Blog Statement:

We have been contacted by several ‘News” media organizations and journalists inquiring if EarthZebra Blog is the source of the leaked Casey Anthony video diary entry that was “published” yesterday.

Casey Anthony- First Interview:
https://earthzebra.com/2011/11/23/casey-anthony-speaks-first-casey-anthony-interview-by-earthzebra-blog-exclusive/

Under no circumstances would I leak any confidential communications between myself and any person EarthZebra Blog interviews.

Unequivocally EarthZebra Blog is NOT the source of the leaked video!

Furthermore, if EarthZebra Blog were the source we would not tell you as to betray the trust of a friendship is to betray ones own soul!

EarthZebra Blog

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I’d like to wish everyone a very awesome 2012! Aside from my press release statement, I have a few things to add to this amazing crap that is going on now about Casey!

I hope that everyone truly didn’t get lost in the commercialism of this most recent time of year and is appreciative for the things in your life that count the most!

In case you don’t know what they are, here are a few that almost all of us have no matter what our circumstances… just being alive, able to see a sunrise, hear geese honking overhead heading south or the crashing ocean waves, breathing fresh air, seeing a pretty flower, an amazing sunset, having hope for the future, having memories of happy things from our pasts or just yesterday, and most of all love in your heart to give or that can be given to another.

Casey Anthony has all these things and is blessed as we all are! It is our God given right as human beings put on this earth. We are all the same, we are connected in this way, and when it gets right down to tough times, we all unite under this shared uniqueness.

Before I get to part 2 of my EarthZebra Blog’s interview with Casey, I’d like to remind everyone of the amazing country we live in, where free speech and one’s right to voice their opinion is allowed and encouraged!

Or is it?

Increasingly more and more often this is not the case. The Tea Party, the Occupy Protesters, Atheists, Republicans, Democrats, in our churches, our schools, and in everyday life, it is becoming more and more difficult to really be able to voice your opinion freely without fear of repercussion from someone who disagrees.

Ones right to be who you want to be, to do what you want to do, to be a free thinker and an individual without conforming the the Sheep’s herd commonality seems to be blessed only to few individuals these days! I suppose it has always been this way though. It is safe in numbers, even if the masses are about to walk over a cliff or nose dive into a parking lot.

Last month, I saw a news story about how hundreds if not thousands of birds nose dived into a Wal-Mart parking lot at full speed. And just yesterday it happened again with Black Birds the same place it did the exact day it did last year! Fireworks my ass! (CBS NEWS: At least 1,500 Eared Grebes, a duck-like aquatic bird, which slammed into the pavement were dead). Apparently the lead bird, or birds, told all the other birds that the parking lot was a lake and they could dive into it. Well, it wasn’t a lake and almost all the birds died as they hit the pavement. It was one of the largest mass deaths of any animals at one time, ever! How very sad!

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In Part 1 of my interview with Casey there are about 220 of the most vile, ugly, hate filled, comments that caught me off-guard. I firstly never expected anyone to read the darn interview much less comment on it. Normally, I have 4 or 5 horny teenagers from Eastern Europe who found my blog by Googling ‘Big Tits’ or something and somehow ended up on my blog. I don’t know, maybe this is how you ALL found the Casey interview! You are all just a bunch of horny teenagers…LOL!

In many ways, well, almost every way along its turning, twisting path the entire “Casey Anthony” road is full of the same “mass following”. Mass hysteria. Mass repeating of misinformation. Mass grouping/following of a flock of birds, nose-diving into the pavement. I wonder if the lead bird really knew the damage that he was about to cause all those that listened to him?

This reminds me of the so many stories we all see in the news about “Bullying” happening in our schools with our children. I bet though, that it is not just in schools and with children, I bet it exists with adults in every part of our society! At least the American society! Our daughters get bullied by groups of other girls and some eventually commit suicide over it. As adults, there are always “cliques” that bully “outsiders” not part of the clique. Bullying exists in all forms of life and it is a very sad thing! Churches “bully” their followers to be better followers. Our President “bullies” congress and us the people to sign onto his beliefs. Our boss “bullies” us to do more work for less money and quicker.

And that brings us to Blogs and in particular, this blog!

It is through kindness, understanding, and love that we will come to realize what it is that we seek to know. To follow anything, or anyone, blindly will only result in us being sheep led to the fox’s den. There are bigger things in life in which should be our priorities versus ill-informed hate for something we know nothing about.

CASEY ANTHONY SPEAKS! First Casey Anthony Interview by EarthZebra Blog! *** Exclusive! ***

23 Nov

Who says persistence doesn’t pay off!

I am very pleased and honored that Casey decided to allow me to interview her and post her very first post-trial interview here on my blog!

Before I get into our conversation many of you must be wondering who the heck is EarthZebra Blog to have scored such an amazingly sought after interview?! Well, I am just as surprised as all of you, except for one thing. Okay, maybe a few…Ha!

I am a very nice person, with no axe to grind, no agenda, not wanting anything! I am understanding, caring, and someone that most people have always felt very comfortable with. All through my life people have come to me for guidance and my unique ability to solve problems and put life in context and perspective! Hey, go me!

I was able to find Casey through the internet which I won’t go into saying exactly how!! But it wasn’t as hard as you would think. I’ve always been good at that. I can find anyone! I didn’t know Casey prior to speaking with her over these past few months.

Interviewing Casey and getting to know her has proven to be an emotional journey for me, as well as her. Perhaps this is why she agreed to me posting it. The questions were not always easy to answer for her and not always easy for me to ask to be honest. She and I both shed tears, and talked at length about spirituality, human nature, why certain people did certain things, how she felt when it was happening, why human beings can be so cruel, the unwritten things of life, and what the weather was like on the days we talked. We covered it all and became friends in the process.

Casey and I have agreed that the “interview” should be as much about her as it is about me and the process of us talking about things……for every journey is a journey for all on it.

There is no one answer, or perspective, in the truth. The truth comes from exploring feelings, options, different takes on what looks to be so clear, but when ripped apart we find the raw truth is not so black and white. “Truth” in fact is only as strong and credible as the past experiences that, that person is basing and comparing that one truth too!

Casey believes that “her truth” was the absolute complete truth because it was her moccasins that had walked the mile before and all truths are based on! I tend to agree. One of Casey’s and my favorite movies is ‘Miracle On 34’th Street’! (The black and white version, not the color)! lol. Where the attorney for Kris Kringle argued that if he believed himself to be Santa Clause then who is to argue that fact? You believe you be to yourself and no-one questions you. So, who is to questions Kris Kringle. His truth is his truth based on his path in life which no-one but he has experienced. Only he knows what is the truth and only Casey knows what is the truth.

Needless to say we covered some pretty deep stuff in our conversations and I am proud to say that we are friends first, and always.

Here is the very first Casey Anthony post-trial interview…an EarthZebra Blog exclusive! Copyright © EarthZebra Blog 2011. All Rights Reserved. Permission for reprint or broadcast in full or in part, is NOT AUTHORIZED without prior written consent!

CASEY SPEAKS PART 1: INTERVIEW WAS CONDUCTED OVER SEVERAL MONTHS AND THE BELOW IS ONLY A FEW SELECTED QUESTIONS THAT CASEY AND I AGREED TO BE THE FIRST TO BE RELEASED TO THE PUBLIC. MAYBE MORE RELEASES TO COME, MAYBE NOT!

EARTHZEBRA: Hi Casey, how are you today?

CASEY: Good, thank you, and you?

EARTHZEBRA: Good, first I want to thank you for allowing my blog to be your first interview of you since the verdict. Can I ask why you are allowing me to interview you?

CASEY: Well, over the last little while we have gotten to know each other and I trust you will accurately and fairly tell my words as I say them.

EARTHZEBRA: Thank you, and yes I will.

CASEY: Good, what’s your first question?

EARTHZEBRA: What is your greatest regret and the one thing you’d do differently over this whole ordeal if you could go back in time and do something different?

CASEY: Wow, that’s a hard one because in hind-site I have many regrets. I’d say the top one would have been to dial 911 right away when I saw my dad carrying Caylee in his arms after being pulled from the pool. At that point in time, I was living a life that was on a merry-go-round without any clarity within myself about anything. I was so messed up on the inside about the constant battle of trying to be myself versus who my family expected me to be. My family expectations always was pushing me in different directions that resulted in me making some very poor decisions. I called my mom at work a bunch of times at that moment but fate and dad took over from there and there was no turning back once we started together down that road. I regret I didn’t handle that moment differently at the time.

EARTHZEBRA: I can’t imagine, but would like to try and understand in that crazy, intense, awful moment when you realized Caylee had drowned, what was happening within you and around you?

CASEY: I’m not sure how much I honestly remember now. It was such a devastating moment in my life. In the beginning I replayed it over and over in my head daily in my cell. But now with everything else, it’s hard for me to recall. I do remember waking up like any other day, going into Caylee’s room where she is usually playing when I get up, and not being able to find her there or anywhere in the house. Dad wasn’t there either so I figured they were together. I poured a cup of coffee and walked to the backyard to see if they were there. I saw dad over by the pool and then Caylee in his arms. But you asked about the feeling. It was slow motion. No sound. It was like a brick wall hitting me head on. Not me running into the brick wall, but the brick wall running into me. I was just numb, hysterical when we couldn’t revive Caylee. We both tried. After that moment I don’t remember much. I was numb. I know dad went and got some of Caylee’s clothes and a blanket. Mom wouldn’t pick up her phone. I don’t remember. I don’t want to talk about this.

EARTHZEBRA: No problem. Different topic. I’m sorry to have taken you there…..

CASEY: It’s okay.

EARTHZEBRA: A happier subject…your future! What do you dream of? What is the vision of your future?

CASEY: I’m not so sure how happy my future is going to be but whatever it is, it’s going to be quiet, and private. I’d like to meet my best friend, and fall in love with an amazing man who is accepting and understanding of my past. I’d like to have a family. Some dogs, and maybe bunnies or something. lol Animals give you unconditional love, so lots of animals. Who knows, right now I’m just taking it one day at a time trying to understand my past, accept my present, and dream of my future. I know it will all work out according to gods plan. I am blessed.

EARTHZEBRA: How is your relationship with your family right now?

CASEY: I’d rather not say. Just that they are all safe and healthy is enough for me for now. Time heals all wounds as they say.

EARTHZEBRA: The Prosecutor Jeff Ashton has a new book out, have you read it? Will you?

CASEY: Nope. Couldn’t care less. It amazes me all the hypocrites out there. They yell, Justice for Caylee, and then without missing a step try to make a buck off of me and off of Caylee dying. It’s sickening. It’s blood money and god will be their judge. I could never contribute to the financial gain of anyone who tries to profit off of me or my daughter.

EARTHZEBRA: Your attorneys are being called by some a “Dream Team”, what do you have to say about that?

CASEY: I agree wholeheartedly!! Jose and Cheney are brilliant men. They have not been given enough credit for the amazing strategy and presentation of the showing the jury the evidence. There was an entire team with many attorneys and everyone together are the absolute best attorneys in the world. I dearly love them all.

EARTHZEBRA: How do you spend your days, these days?

CASEY: I’m trying to make life as normal as I can. Whatever normal is. You have to remember I was in a box no bigger than your bathroom for 23 hours a day so anything other than that is a great thing. Sometimes I cry just looking out into the back here seeing the sky and trees, hearing the birds, breathing fresh air. You can’t appreciate freedom truly until you have lost it. I usually get up and make some oatmeal, drink coffee and read the paper. I work out for about an hour each day. You’d be surprised when your confined to a little space how it effects your muscles and cardio. I’m taking online classes now so after my work out I’ll log on and listen to that days lecture, and start on the homework. So far, so good, I’m really enjoying school. After that I might fix some fruit or hummus and avocado sandwich. It’s good, really! lol My afternoons is when I sometimes go for a ride, just driving around. I never get out of the car unless I’m way away from any people and sometimes I’ll get out and just lay in the grass looking up at the clouds and sky and talk to my Caylee and God. Nights are pretty much TV and writing in my diary. That’s pretty much it. Quiet. Peaceful. Full of dreams and hope.

EARTHZEBRA: Your hair in your trial had grown to be very long and beautiful. How did you feel about your hair during the trial and now?

CASEY: Oh god, it was a hot mess in the trial! lol. But thanks. The hard part was they wouldn’t give me any scissors to cut it or allow anyone to come into the jail to cut it so I just let it grow. I had to do the best I could with bobby pins and clips. All those photos should have a disclaimer on them, girl wasn’t provided proper grooming tools! lol.

EARTHZEBRA: LOL, too funny! It’s good that you have reached a place where some of the things that happened to you, you can laugh about. Are you at a good place and can laugh at some of the things or are you putting on a brave face and just coping?

CASEY: I suppose a little of both. I’m a survivor and when a person is put in extreme situations you kinda just deal with it best you can because there is nothing else you can do. Some things like hair, and funny things that happened behind the scenes can be laughed at. Other things that people did and said are a bit more difficult to accept. I’m working on this with my therapist and over time will have a clear understanding of motivations. Actually, you EarthZebra are the one who told me this which is so true: Rip apart your past and understand it, then know where you are at present, and only then can you see your future. Thank you for those words, they will stay with me on this journey.

EARTHZEBRA: You are welcome.

EARTHZEBRA: Honestly I don’t have too much more to ask you. Can we do this again sometime? A Part 2?

CASEY: Sure.

EARTHZEBRA: Well, thank you Casey. I really appreciate you allowing me to ask you some questions and blog them. I’ve enjoyed our conversations and hope they continue, as friends.

CASEY: Me too. And Yes, to your other question. 🙂

EARTHZEBRA: :)!!!!!!

EARTHZEBRA: Have a great night! xoxo

CASEY: U too. xo

————-End Interview PART 1—————

And that is the first interview. I’ll let is speak for itself.

I would very much like to thank Casey for her time and giving the interviews. There are several other interview installments that might be posted. She and I agreed on the above to be Part 1.

First and foremost I think of Casey as a friend and would never do anything to cause her harm or think poorly of me. It’s been fun. Thanks!

Copyright © EarthZebra Blog 2011. All Rights Reserved. Permission for reprint or broadcast in full or in part, is NOT AUTHORIZED without prior written consent!

Casey Anthony Trial Ends In Mis-Trial for Prosecutor Misconduct! Casey will be FREE and Home Next Week!

25 Jun

Something is up here. Where there is smoke, there is fire.

Yesterday, in the Casey Anthony Trial, Lee Anthony takes the stand and tells the court in cross-examination that he was sitting with his parents a few days ago and his father George Anthony admitted something!

What that “something” is, no one knows yet. Lee said he went to the defense council Jose Beaz and told him what George admitted.

Will George be taking the stand again and admitting something?

Will Lee be taking the stand and saying what he heard George say?

What did Lee mean when at Caylee’s memorial he said “CMA I will never forget my promise to you”? Well CMA is obviously is Casey Marie Anthony, and not Caylee. You don’t make promises to a 2 year old that you will never forget. But you do, to a sister who is possibly being molested by her dad!

Although, my thoughts are Casey and George were having a “romantic” relationship! People think that molestation always has to be “forced”. I think Casey was messed up enough to think of George as a romantic partner and the sex was consensual.

I think George is ready to take the bullet for Casey! He is ready to get up on the stand and start telling what happened!

On other Casey Anthony Trial things that has come up yesterday and today is today’s trial was canceled do to “legal matters that need to be addressed”! I think the Police or Prosecution did not turn over Roy Kronk’s cell phone location reports and intentionally withheld evidence from the Defense! This results in an immediate mis-trial due to Prosecutor Misconduct and Casey can NOT be re-tried!

Casey Anthony will be FREE and home next week!

Casey Anthony Trial – I’M NOT GUILTY! In her own words!

20 May

“My name is Casey Anthony. I am writing this from jail without the knowledge of my attorneys. Today is the weekend of of May 21’st, 2011. My trial is in the middle of jury selection and my trial is scheduled to start next week.”

“It is extremely painful for me to write this true account of what happened to my dear Caylee but I feel I must set the record straight as only I can do! It is time that the truth be known and the world know what happened. I am not a murderer, a monster, a psychopath, as most in the media, law enforcement, and our legal system has tried to portrait me!”

THE FOLLOWING AND ABOVE IS AN ACCOUNT OF ONE POSSIBLE VERSION OF WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED IN THE CASEY ANTHONY TRIAL OF THE DEATH OF HER 2 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER CAYLEE ANTHONY!

THIS ACCOUNT IS PURELY FICTIONAL AND WRITTEN ONLY TO CREATE DIALOGUE IN THE HOPE OF FINDING THE TRUTH OF WHAT HAPPENED!

I HAVE WRITTEN THIS BLOG POST IN, FIRST PERSON NARRATIVE, IN CASEY ANTHONY’S VOICE, AS I SEE WHAT MIGHT HAVE HAPPENED, IN HER OWN WORDS!
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Hi Everyone,

My name is Casey Anthony. I am writing this from jail without the knowledge of my attorneys. Today is the weekend of of May 21’st, 2011. My trial is in the middle of jury selection and my trial is scheduled to start next week.

I am accused of killing my 2 year old daughter, the love of my life and my everything.

It is extremely painful for me to write this true account of what happened to my dear Caylee but I feel I must set the record straight as only I can do! It is time that the truth be known and the world know what happened. I am not a murderer, a monster, a psychopath, as most in the media, law enforcement, and our legal system has tried to portrait me!

I am the victim of abusive parents resulting in very, very poor judgment on my part.

So, first off, I am very very sorry for everyone that I have caused hurt to effecting their lives. Oh god, if I could go back and and make better decisions at that time, I would! Believe me, I am not afraid to be sentenced to death if only to make up for hurting others. I did not kill my child. However, I did kill all those I love by my poor choices, my family, my friends, and so many others in that have come into my life in the last few years, and recently that I owe so much gratitude and sorriness too! I am sorry!

Ok, where to start…….I did not kill my daughter, Caylee Anthony! I loved my daughter more than anything in the world and would never hurt her in any way! I was her momma! Her protector! She was my everything, regardless of how the media has portrayed me……..it is not true! I love, and loved my daughter, (god rest her soul)!

I grew up in a very suffocating home environment. From my earliest memories my mother always was there to be the amazing mom and family leader. She took care of everything in the home. A rock. A pillar of strength and someone that I so wanted to be like when I grew up. My mom is my hero! If only in life I could have grown up with her wisdom, knowing what to do, her strength, 6’th sense and intuition. But I did not. Mom always had a way of knowing what to do. Mom always had and has some sort of mystic powers to always come out on top! I am not her. This pains me greatly for, for all of my life I have tried to make her proud of me! Every child in life wants nothing else but to make their parents proud of them. Especially the dominant parent! I love my mom. I love my mom! But, in her love for our family she suffocated me in my developmental process! I never was given the chance to fail! Everything was done for me! A moms love which I so love her for, but it did not give me the mental, growing, maturity that most have in life. I was protected, decisions made for me, and never allowed to grow into my own person!

People say, I am a 20 something adult , but I am not! I am still the 16 year old girl wanting desperately to find my own self! However, I can not! My mother has controlled my entire life, and she will continue to control my entire life as I will always seek her approval. Even from jail.. I was never given the chance to develop into my own self! I am a prisoner to my mom!

So, now I have committed some crime they say! No, I did not! I loved my daughter! This hurts me so much, and to talk to my mom about what happened was impossible for me to do! Telling her what happened would hurt me so much and this is why I could not do it and so I tried to hide Caylee’s death! I just couldn’t deal with it! The shame of failing, again, in my mothers eyes! Oh the shame and disappointment in her eyes…again!

I am not going to say how my dear Caylee died, my love and daughter as we are in trial, but will say it was an accident. She died of an accident! Things happen to kids that are out of our control. How many kids run behind the car and get hit! How many kids get under the sink and drink something they should not! How many kids drown in the pool, a bucket, or even suffocate on a bag or somehow get entangled in a cord. Why does everyone automatically assume I killed my child! I did not! It was an accident that yes, as a mother I should have been there to keep her safe, but I was not. All mothers know that you can’t 100% of the time have your kids in your arms! Kids will be kids and run around. My dear Caylee died from a very common household accident that occur almost daily to all mothers and fathers. The exact manner of her death doesn’t matter. She is dead!

When I found Caylee dead, I was in shock! My baby was dead and I didn’t know what to do! The pain was unbearable to me. No one understands this. Mom doesn’t understand as I could not tell her what happened. It was an accident but she’d blame me! Once again! So, I just sat there and cried. Everyone will blame me for this, I thought to myself, so I did nothing.

I wrapped Caylee’s body up in a blanket and for a few days I did not leave the apartment, holding her, and crying. I was beside myself and not thinking clearly. What was I going to do? Oh god, help me!

Over the next month I tried to live life as though nothing happened. I had to go out in public and act as though everything was normal. At a certain point deterioration of Caylee’s body started and I had to move her to the truck of my car. I had no where else to put her as the smell was getting strong. My plan was to find a pretty place to bury her, but as people started to notice that Caylee was not around I decided that I would have to fake a kidnapping. This is the point where everything started happening so quick that I couldn’t keep track of what I told to who. I could see this was going to be a problem. So, I took some tape and make it look like a kidnapping. I put her in a trash bag and dumped her in the woods to appear like someone took her. I do not know how the meter reader gentleman, Roy Kronk, knew where she was. He must have seen me because it is not a coincidence that he knew where Caylee’s body was.

I am very sorry for just not telling everyone that she died of an accident but I could not face my mother’s disappointment in me.

George is abusive to my mom Cindy, especially when it comes to me! He resents that he had to be a part of Caylee’s life. But my mom defends me with him, as she is my mom and will always be on my side. George is an alcoholic. Former law enforcement officer. Mom is strong but with him is weak. So she gets pressure from him about me and she can be mean to me. I understand this now in hind-site. George was giving my mom sh*t about them taking care of Caylee and me being irresponsible in his opinion. He never did really like me. I never really did like him. So mom was in the middle! I needed help from mom with baby care things as I could not afford myself and Caylee. Our apartment had rent due each month, food, and all that goes into being an independent woman and mother.

So that is the background of my life and what happened. I never really got a chance to develop into a woman or person to make my own decisions. My mom married a very controlling person, which gave her constant grief in her relationship with me. He said, I should be cut off, but mom loved me. Mom and my relationship was always very stressed as I was never good enough in her eyes.

I am crying as I write this now, because I tried so hard to be a great mother to Caylee. I was a great mother to Caylee! So, to all of you who listen to all the news media that I abandoned my daughter, I am not a bad mother! My mom was so critical of me. Everything I did was wrong. I was a bad mother, no matter what in my mom’s eyes. No matter what I did was wrong in her eyes. I think this is the greatest factor in what happened after Caylee’s death.

George tried to kill himself. I want to feel responsible for this but can not. I love my mom. I support my mom even though her love figures into this. But this whole awfulness is my responsibility. I have accepted this.

So, no more words, my lawyers will hate me for this post…but I needed to say what happened!

I know I will be in jail forever, but I should not be. It was an accident. My Caylee is gone and so I give up. My family is gone. Everyone hates me. It is okay, I am numb!

Sincerely,

Casey