Tag Archives: Dating

I am a Moron and Can’t Help It!

28 Nov

Who am I?  Who am I?  I can’t remember which movie I saw that in but it was a good scene.  The actor kept repeating it, who am I, who am I, in different voice tones as if one of them would stick and he’d suddenly realize who he is.  I remember, it was ‘The Breakfast Club’, great movie!

 
I am typing this after another bad experience.   After-all, “you speak too much” she told me!  UGG, dagger through heart!   I suppose that is the reason why I’m not married.  I’ve dated some amazing women in my life, go me!…but my biggest flaw and such a turn-off to women is when a guy holds his heart out too soon to a woman.  Everyone likes the chase.  Everyone likes to feel like they conquered their prey!  Society has told us that “hard to get” makes for a better person to be with.  
 
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Well, not so!  It’s funny, the girls that I have dated that I wasn’t really into all that much are the longest relationships I have had.  I treated them like shit and they kept coming back and back.  But when I really like someone and all those chemical reactions started racing through my body, I always destroyed those possible relationships by being a complete and total needy loser!  Darn chemical reactions!
 
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My longest relationships with those that I was very much into was when I was dating several of “them” all at the same time.  I physically just couldn’t keep up with each of the girls.  This made for a good buffer from my chemical reactions, otherwise they would have imploded too.   When I finally settled on just one, it imploded a few months after.   It IS possible to love too much!   
 
I think something is wrong with me physically inside.  This is not a normal response to being into someone, is it?  
 
I just hope that I can meet someone with the same chemical reaction that I have for them, they have for me.   My god, the sex would be nuclear!  
 
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I will keep trying.  But I’m not getting any  younger and am getting a little concerned I’ll be alone forever and never have kids.  Very sad.
 
xoxo
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Finding Ones SELF Among so Many Distractions! “Aliens” Control Us All!

10 Dec

How do we do it? Finding our true selves! Being true to who we are. Being honest to our soul so that it can thrive and grow to all we are capable of!

After-all, we each have so many distractions in finding ourselves, truth, reality, friends, family, love, and what it is that we each are in life! Who ARE you?

First of all we have our parents influence in who “we should be”, or “what we should become”! We have big brothers who are athletes or amazingly creative that we should mimic. We have sisters who are incredibly smart, or beautiful and we are suppose to duplicate and match. We go to church and see our spiritual leaders who are the ones we look up to and try our best to be like. Our social leaders of the community have achieved what we all are suppose to aspire to be.

We see on television so many confusing “measuring marks” of what society tells us what, and who are the most popular. Don’t we all want to be popular, liked, and “respected”?! Yes, we all do. It is a natural desire to want to be accepted and part of “the cool kids”. It is natural to want to be good at something and have fans that recognize our achievements!

On television is the Barbara Walters special, (December of 2010) and she is interviewing Oprah Winfrey. We watch in awe of how amazing these women are. We look in awe and see what we want to be as a people. We look in awe at these smart, talented, people who are the things that greatness is measured by in all human beings. They are two women of incredible success and stature. Not just women but “people” that all cultures can look up to and try to be like.

Or are they all these things? I wonder!

I think of these types of people as Aliens. They are the ugliest of all people. The dirtiest and most harmful of all creatures to the human species in modern day times! Creatures in a movie which eat smaller mammals for their own survival. They relish in their own ability to be smaller mammal eating idols.

Their Alien words are harmful to all us and should be avoided at all costs. Their images and messages are broadcast over our televisions as a controlling “numbing” message. Their messages are intentionally to be that which each of us desire but are to not realize and obtain! Their messages and images are intentionally out of reach for all of us so that they can maintain their position of being thought of as “special”.

Why is it that each of us listen so much to the Aliens numbing message? It is numbing in that we each continue to strive to be like the Aliens when it is not possible. Have you ever seen a walking wind up toy which continue to head butt the wall in front of it? It continues to try and move forward over and over but will never get past the wall. This is what the Aliens want of all of us. Their messages wind us up, pointing us towards the wall, and when we get there we don’t know any better than to change direction. We don’t realize the messages the Aliens tell us are for no other purpose but to keep giving us unreachable standards so that we are so busy trying to reach those standards that we never really realize our own individual greatness in just being normal.

Aliens cast upon all of us their spells of unobtainable things in life. They show us what is not possible and in-so keep us powerless and a slave through our constant “head butting the wall” attempt to be like them.

It is time for us all to unite and not look at the Aliens anymore! It is time to not listen to the Aliens ever again! It is time to ignore the Aliens making them meaningless and obsolete! The Aliens food supply is our needing them. By not needing them, not listening to them, not wanting to be them, they will starve to death and disappear.

The greatest desire in life for all of us, is that we all so, so , so, desire to just wake up and just be happy! We wake up and just desire that our loved ones are healthy and safe! We wake up and do our very best to support our families! We are a diverse species. Some, wake up and do a line of coke, or do a trick, or dread having to see someone at the office who we don’t want to see! We wake up homeless, or with a mortgage we can’t pay, or son in jail, or just having been abused in some way by another! Good things and bad things…”We” are life.

“We”…..”all of us”….ARE the purest of what nature is and meant to be! “We” are the measuring mark of how life is to be lived. “We” have real, achievable, attainable personality traits, bodies, and successes. The Aliens do not!

“Be happy and excel in being yourself and greatness will find you” ~ Earth Zebra

Is the “One” we choose to be with “Meant to Be”?

29 Nov

I wonder if “the one” we end up with in each of our individual seeking’s for love is a choice or “meant to be” and will happen no matter what.

I read about people who tell stories of “love at first site” and they just knew that the person in front of them was to be the one they would spend the rest of their life with. How did they know? Was it that they simply were attracted to this person and they have dozens of others…..”mis-fires”….caucuses…. on the highway of past attractions.

Is it just that the one we end up with turned out to be the one so it is easy to say, “I knew at first site”. How many other “at first site’s” did these people also have?

Today, I met a girl who could possibly be “the one”. Incredibly grace, elegance, and on the surface all the things a King would seek for his Queen. I even told her about this blog, so to a certain extent does that mean I’m writing this to her on some deep sub-conscious level? Does this mean that I think she is the one, or a candidate? Where does the official line get drawn and distinguished between our natural “hope for good things” and some sort of god guided “meant to be” scenario?

If you were to drive on the highway of the past for any of us, of all the possible “the one’s” you’d need a tank to drive over all the dust remains to make the highway passable on the road to today. I think this is true for all of us. What is the difference between all those “the ones” and any of today’s “the ones”?

I think that in our journey in life people are always optimistic towards the future. It is in our genes to expect a plentiful harvest, a positive outcome, and reaching our dreams and goals. I think this also rings true for finding love.

I’d like to think that “meant to be” does exist. I’d like to believe that every person has another person they are born to find and travel through life together with. But, why is it not this way for other mammals and animals created by god? Why is it that we should believe that the human experience is special to none other? How do you explain divorce when if asked, most of those getting divorced thought they had found “the one” in the beginning too?

Is it possible that our desire as a society and individuals to be “special” because we exist at the top of the food chain and are arguably the smartest animal in the universe figure into our need for those we choose to “give ourselves too” to be somehow chosen by a higher power? Is this especially heightened to Americans as the current dominant super power of all countries and feeling entitled to being special is of less an importance for other cultures and countries?

Well, as someone who still hopes someday to see Santa Claus climbing down the chimney, the Tooth Fairy leaving the money under my future children pillows when they lose a tooth, the Easter Bunny, Mother Nature, The Great Pumpkin, Unicorns, and Angel’s granting wishes every time a bell is heard, I will also continue to believe that there is just one person out there for each of us and if it is meant to be, then it will be.

And until I meet that person, the road bumps created by the ones that did not make the cut make the ride an interesting one!

“Good luck to you all, it is meant to be!” ~ Earth Zebra

I’m Getting Married!

1 Nov

Well, at least according to my mom that is!

Apparently she has this secret plan to get me hitched with her favorite girl in town! A good old fashioned arranged marriage! Oh god, shoot me now! BANG!!….(Thank you)!

Ok, ok, so maybe this isn’t her photo to the left, but when I took a quick look today at my future arranged marriage wife to be’s Facebook page, it turns out that she is really beautiful, early 20’s, and according to mom one of the sweetest human beings on the planet.

It’s tempting. But I am within hours of moving my very skilled dating and more than capable to find my own wife body to the other side of the universe (not that I’m looking mind you!). I’m incredibly enthusiastic to dip my toes into a new lake where the fish grow to be spectacular trophy fish. Could I possibly entertain such an idea of my mother picking out the one I’m meant to be with forever after? Could I possibly entertain such an idea that the one girl that god has chosen for me, is to be discovered by someone other than me? How about the hunt? The chase? Am I to forgo my primal manly instincts to sleigh the dragon, jump over the mote, scale the castle walls and rescue my princess? All to be exchanged for a “thanks for the wife mom” courtship?

Nawwww….can’t be. I shall move to utopia and pick my own low hanging fruit. I’m sure they will be very tasty. :)!