Man Up!

8 Nov

My Dad’s death has been an unbelievable range of emotions for me! My emotions have been… Stay strong. Cry. Stay strong. Cry.

I have an outlet in this blog, that my other family members don’t have. When writing my blog a few days ago about my dad dying I was completely in tears all the way through. It was the release that I needed and I am at peace with dad and his passing. Then I became angry. Angry at dad, angry at his wife. Angry at the doctors. Angry at my siblings.

This has passed as well and I am at peace once again. I wonder how long this phase of peace will last?!

A memorial is now planned and at first I said, I’m not going! But, that was just not wanting to accept the facts of life as they are and my dad is gone and all the things I should have done with him.

We all die at some point and I’m miss you dad. I will come to the memorial.

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My Dad Died Today! I miss you Dad!

4 Nov

My Dad passed away today! It feels like a gut punch and I can’t seem to catch my breath today. It’s the worst feeling EVER!

I always knew this day would come. It does for all of us! Funny, I expected to have a mental reaction but not a physical one! My body feels numb. My stomach is wrenched up into a knot and I want to puke! I am not hungry. My head feels numb. My brain feels numb. My heart is heavy! I feel a welling up of a gallon of tears gathering strength but not able to be released yet. After-all, men are suppose to be strong, right Dad?! You taught me how to be strong and how to be man and I thank you for this!

I didn’t expect to have this reaction. Not that I didn’t love the man who brought me into this world and taught me how to make a parachute that an impressionable boy throws up into the air with a little army man tied to the bottom, made out of a grocery store clear vegetable bag with some string & tape….for I did immeasurably! It’s just that he taught me to be a strong man, independent, and not to show vulnerability.

It was only in the last few years that we said to each other “I love you” at the end of a phone call. Something that I wish was a normal thing for us in all our life. I’m sorry that I didn’t make the time from “my busy schedule” to see you as much as I should have!

I do know that you brought 4 amazing kids into this world which have accomplished much and you taught each of us to strive, and achieve in life! We would not be all that we are, and generations in the future will be because of your mind, teachings, and strength!

I love you Dad.

Time Continues Daily. Porn Always the Truth of Civilization!

15 Aug

Jesus Two WivesI just don’t have time anymore to blog and talk about what I see in the world as injustices or interesting things to me.

Which is going to be my biggest failure in life. Perhaps for many of us!

We are all so torn between the explosion of “directions” in the last 4 years…2008 – 2013 AD. Just look what has happened?! Twitter is a mainstay for everyone just about (for now). Facebook had it’s time and is now on it’s way out. MySpace was the innovator and is basically gone now. Everyone has a “Blog” and thinks their opinion is somehow now important to the world, ut um.

Anyone can create a “news media” information outlet with just a few clicks (Snowden, WikiLeaks). There are “Forums” on just about every topic and every topic for every topic. Television, has divided into a few “Networks” which are corrupted by big money, a mass of Cable channels that seen to broadcast biased crap directed by the choices of biased “corporations”. And “side” offerings from so many directions that it’s impossible to keep track of all this!
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Lets put this in perspective and don’t hold me to the exact dates as it's from my perspective. The internet began in about 1996, although it was pretty lame. I got my first computer about 2003 and internet Porn was raging by then. It was a huge as old tube TV style MAC which I paid $3,500 for and sent it back within the first week because I couldn't figure out how to use it! Stupid me! Now in 2013 I'm only on my 3'rd computer since. Now it's Va Va Voom with Porn as easy as a few clicks and you don't even have to be scarred to watch it. No one cares! But, aside from that, there has been a transformation in our society in the last 5 years or so.

I guess the moral of this post is that Porn lives strong but ideas of society are subject to technology!

Goodluck in HELL Trayvon Martin

14 Jul

HellIsn’t Hell where people go when they sucker punch people and slam their heads into a cement sidewalk over and over and over as that person cries out for help pleading for them to stop?

Isn’t Hell where people go who are Racist towards another group based on their skin color, when they “profile” and use words like “Cracker” to describe another race who has different color skin?

Isn’t Hell where people go who walk around in a dazed drugged stupor, thinking the laws of the land do not apply them?

Isn’t Hell where people go instead of going home, circle back and lay in waiting to attack another human being?

ObliviousFor those of you living under a rock these last 6 weeks and year for that matter, there has been a Criminal Trial happening in the US state of Florida. In a nut shell, the trial was about a 17 year old “youth” being shot by a Community Watch leader in a neighborhood residential townhouse complex. The evidence in the trial showed that the community watch leader thought the youth was acting strangely and “up to no good” due to a recent rash of burglaries in the same neighborhood. The community watch leader called his local police to come and investigate but in the meantime got out of his car to see where the youth was going. Not too long after, the youth circled back, confronted and attacked the community watch leader and was shot in the scuffle that followed. From all appearances it seems the youth was the aggressor of the attack.

Ignor the Facts 2No-one will ever know all the exact details of the encounter but we do know enough to come to a logical conclusion that the youth was the person mostly in fault. There were significant injuries to the community watch leaders back of his head where it appears it was being bashed into the cement sidewalk. No injuries, other than the bullet wound were found on the youth. Witnesses say they saw the youth on top of the smaller community watch leader. The jury decided after a 2 week trial that the community leader was NOT GUILTY.

Racism AnywayNow that you are up to speed, this brings us to the aftermath. I’d say that about 65% of the people in the US don’t understand the verdict. Which seems to be about the same % who voted for Obama coincidentally! They are calling for “Justice For Trayvon”. Those that are upset by the verdict don’t understand how an unarmed “child” can be killed. Many of those who are upset are blaming this on race. Claiming that Black people in the US don’t count and do not get “Justice”.

White Life ProtectedThere are several problems with the reaction to this event in US History. And I believe it is a culturally important historical event in the United States, in that it will effect people of the black race to feel “lesser”, “not counted”, “the system doesn’t protect us”, “a step backwards to equality”. Just for the perception that Justice was not served based solely on race.

The problem with the aftermath reaction is it’s mostly based on false facts of the case.

Gimini Cricket1.) The news media has been spun like puppets by civil rights activists from day one of this whole thing to further their civil rights agendas. The parents of the youth hired civil rights attorneys to represent them and everything out of their mouths has been biased and misleading of the real facts of what happened.

2.) The President (our first half black President), jumped on the bandwagon giving sympathy and justification to the false narrative being spewed by the news media being manipulated by the civil rights groups.

groupies3.) Many of those who show dismay about the Not Guilty verdict are basing their outrage mostly on being Politically Correct towards their “peers” versus actually knowing the facts of the case. It is “cool” to be outraged. It is the fashionable thing to say that you are for a black youth. It is Politically Correct to be for “children”. It is Politically Correct to be for a minority race and especially the black race. peer pressureIt is Politically Correct to be Politically Correct. I’d venture to say that a large portion of the “outraged” know more about what the Kardashians did on last weeks episode versus the facts of the case. Give them a few hours and what’s for lunch will their latest most important thing in life.

Media PuppetsWhat does this say about our society? It says that nothing has changed in the last thousand years and we live in a pasture of SHEEP! It says that we live in a society where Money and Power will always trump the truth. It says about our society that if there is an opportunity for “bad people” to twist the truth for their own advancement, they will do it! It says that most people in the US have their thoughts and life beliefs mostly formed by the media. And the media will always follow the money. If there is money to be made by exploiting a situation and tweaking the facts of what happened to match Political Correctness, the media will most certainly throw an innocent community watch leader in jail for the rest of his life without even batting an eyelash.

The TruthWhat proved out to be nothing more than a simple “Self-Defense” was overcharged by the Florida Prosecutors from the very beginning which play a large roll in the blame game of “what went wrong” with this whole thing. The local police did not want to charge the community watch leader due to lack of evidence that a crime was committed. They said it was self-defense and all the evidence in the case seem to agree with their initial findings. But all the Civil Rights groups had at that time worked the general public up into a frenzy by their false portrayal of the facts which were more than happily repeated by the media. For example, most people in the general public think the “youth” was a child. A 12 year old black child on his way home with skittles and a soda in his pocket. The real truth is he was a big kid of about 6’2″ tall in shoes, suspended from school for drug paraphernalia possession. When witnesses describe “the larger person on top”, they are in fact describing the “youth”. Most people in the public only see the 12 year old boy because those are the photos that the media shows in news reports and continue to show even today after the trial showed the youths real size as that of a large “man”.

Reality Green Road Sign Against Dramatic Sky, Clouds and Sunburst.Is this what our world has come too? That we base our emotions, and existence on a “smoke and mirrors” version of reality?

Are all of our lives based on what someone else force feeds to us? Are we so dependent on Television, and “Entertainment Media” that, IT becomes our “Big Brother” which tells us how to eat, how to choose our mates, what is socially acceptable, politically correct, and dictates to us most of what we think is real in life?

What a sad world we live in where we have been reduced to basing our own lives on what people with agendas feed to us. And we are only more than happy to lick the bowl when we are shoved it into our mouths, brains, hearts, and characters.

Herder Watching SheepI do not blame or have ill feelings towards the Sheep. This is the way it has been all through-out time and I suspect will continue through-out all time. People want to believe in Good. People want to believe in What’s Right. The problem is the “messenger” of the facts has lied to them.

This case is not about race.
Justice has been served and got it correct.

If outrage is due, it should be directed towards those who are feeding us false facts to further their own agenda’s, power, or profits.

Don’t be a Sheep!

EZ

OPEN LETTER TO MR. OBAMA! It’s Sad Our First Half Black President is the Most Corrupt In American History

25 May

Nixon 1Dear Mr. Obama,

I refer to you as Mr. Obama and not as Mr. President because you have lost the right to be called that in my book. Sir, you are a crook!

I had such great hope for you Mr Obama! I’d like to say “Shame on you”! But it is my own fault. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me! You have fooled me in two elections now Mr. Obama but never again. You have shown your true character and it is that of a con-artist and liar.

HopeI had such great hope that something “new” was about to happen when you ran for President the first time and won. A new way of governing. An honest and forthright way of representing ‘we the people’! A new transparency. A President who we could finally trust. Trust to do the work of the people, for the people. I thought you were going to be a President who would balance things back out making things more fair for everyone and not so slanted towards the very wealthy and connected.

Where did the train go off track Mr. Obama? Were you always corrupt? Is this why you always depended so heavily on teleprompters because you speak with a forked tongue and needed a script? Why Mr. Obama?…Why?…Why?

What did you do to lose my confidence an trust you ask? Sure, it’s only fair. I will tell you.

Ambassador US Bloody Body J Christopher Stevens Body 1* Most recently you lied about the killing of 4 of our diplomats in Benghazi, Lybia. You knew the embassy was under attack and you did nothing. You went to sleep so you could fly to Las Vegas the next day for a fundraiser. I hope that blood money was well worth it Mr. Obama because that is what it is. Blood money! The blood from our 4 dead Americans that you directly could have saved (or at least tried)! But, you chose to be a selfish Mother Fucker!! You chose to bury your head in the sand and hope that nothing bad would happen. Well, it did you selfish, selfish, lying piece of shit! Look at the above photo Mr Obama!…LOOK AT IT….LOOK AT OUR AMBASSADOR BEING DRAGGED THROUGH THE STREETS!!!! His name is Ambassador Christopher Stevens and YOU Mr Obama did nothing while he was being dragged through the streets! LOOK AT HIM MR OBAMA!! LOOK AT HIM!!! YOU LET THIS HAPPEN!!!! YOU ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN JUST SO YOU COULD BE RE-ELECTED YOU MOTHER FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!!

They Knew * Then after you had blood all over your hands Mr. Obama you lied about it. You directly told your staff to lie, and you yourself went to the U.N and made a speech lying that it was caused by a video! You knew damn well and sure that these 4 brave Americans were murdured and you did nothing, so tried to COVER IT UP! You make me sick sir!

Hitler Obama Hit List * *Now we learn that you directed the IRS to go after anyone who did not support you. You made, and encouraged others to make an "Obama's Enemies List"! You set loose the hounds to take down anyone who supported Republicans, the Tea Party, and anyone who criticized or questions you! Go fuck yourself you liar! You Mr Obama are one of the worst human beings of all of time!

* We also just learned that you directed your Justice Department to go after any Media that did not hold your hand in everything you do! You directed your henchmen to take down any reporter who investigated anything you did or any of your policies. You have been trying to get Fox News off the air. You have been trying to get Talk Radio off the air. You have been trying to change the laws, the rules, to control any media that isn't 100% in your pocket. You have been issuing subpoenas obtaining phone records of reporters and news networks to intimidate and destroy them. You are a crook sir!

Watergate* Mr Obama you decided to give Victoria Nuland a promotion to reward her for not saying anything about what really happened in reporting how the Benghazi "talking points" to the media and American people were changed by you. Miss Nuland was one of the people in the State Department, right under Hillary Clinton, who took your direction to lie to the American people and World about how you let the 4 Americans get slaughtered in Benghazi! Instead of firing Miss Nuland, you give her a reward promotion for facilitating your lies.

* Mr Obama you decided to put IRS boss Lois Lerner on administrative leave, WITH PAY, instead of firing her for carrying out your directive for the IRS to go after your political enemies! Why would you do this? Because she was just being a good soldier and carrying out your wishes?!? You bet! And just in case you thought that no-one noticed, Miss Lerner's old boss who was in that same position (Sara Hall Ingram) from 2009 until 2012, has since been promoted to orchestrate your "Obamacare" health care to the entire nation! Are you kidding me? So, what this basically means is that you, Mr. Obama, had Sara Hall Ingram running your IRS hitlist prior to Miss Lerner. No wonder you won't fire Miss Lerner, she just took over the hit squad from Miss Ingram! The REAL head of the hitlist is now in charge of Obamacare!! Are you going to give Miss Lerner a promotion too, like you did Miss Ingram? Are you going to fire Miss Ingram AND Miss Lerner? Who are you going to fire Mr Obama? I see…no-one. Why, because you are the fox in the hen house and you know it! You make me sick!

Obama CriminalWhat have you accomplished Mr Obama? You lied to us all. You targeted my fellow Americans who only want to voice their opinion and should be able too regardless of political affiliation. You hid the truth. You spent countless amounts of American Tax Payer dollars just so you could get re-elected. You are a crook Mr Obama! I hope they impeach you, put you on trial, and put you in jail like the common criminal you have proven yourself to be! You are no different than Saddam Hussein! No different than Joseph Stalin! No different than any North Korean leader! You are a bully dictator Mr Obama!

You make me sick Mr. President. I wish you were white, because you have ruined it for countless more black, and half black candidates for decades to come! You abused your power, you took advantage of the American People, and you are the lowest form of dog shit that exists!

Sincerely,
EZ

The UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT is Lying about North Korea!

13 Apr

No captionThe US government is hell bent on scaring the sh*t out of it’s own population and World about North Korea!

The trillion dollar question is why?

What do the scare tactics being used by the government of the United States really mean:

1.) North Korea launches a missile in December putting a satellite into orbit.
The USA says it was a military missile. Of course they would! That is what I’d say too if I was trying to find things I could twist into scaring people!

2.) North Korea invites Dennis Rodmann the basketball player to visit their leader.
The US Government has no comment and shortly after begins an all out campaign to scare the world about North Korea

3.) North Korea has their annual war games that they have each year.
The US Government twists that into they are massing at the border and about to invade South Korea

4.) North Korea this, and that, and this, and that. It just goes on and on and I don’t have time to go over the daily spewing of poppy cock of misinformation.

I can assure you there is a very simple answer which is not what you are being spoon fed by the US media via the US government.

Orwell Crowd BrainwashingSo, what’s all the hubbub about?

Doesn’t this all sound very similar to propaganda we’ve heard before any escalation towards war that the United States Government has engaged in, in the last 20 years! It’s right out of the playbook, line by line.

Scare the PeopleFirst step is to take anything that the wanted opponent does and twist the heck out of it making them look like the crazy monster that is going to eat our children. Remember Iraq and the leader we hung by a rope? Same strategy. Paint the leader, military, and it’s people as crazy, evil, and dangerous.

Second step is too keep spewing out the false information to the population of the US and the World. If you say it enough people will start believing it. The USA media has no problem in facilitating this step. By creating a crisis they keep their watchers, readers, and listener engaged and tuning in. The more people tune in the more money they make.

North Korea isn’t doing anything threatening to anyone. The only one making threats is the US Government.

Orwell 1984Just remember. Not too long ago our trusted US Government created an office called, “The Office of Mis-Communication” which sole purpose was to feed the population and world a bunch of bullsh*t in order to form public opinion, policy, and keep it’s citizens living in fear and dependent on “Big Brother”.

Don’t Be Mean To Me Mommy I’ll be Good

9 Mar

Parents Don't Love MeDon’t be mean to me Mommy, I’ll be good….are words of a 5 year old, a 12 year old, a 28 year old, a 42 year old, a 62 year old, or an 82 year old!

No matter how much we like to think of ourselves as “independent”, grown up, our own person, the love of our Father or Mother is something that is deep routed into us and we will ALWAYS strive to find their approval, acceptance, and love.

This is not anything new in the world that I’m revealing.  There have been countless movies, and books on the subject.  On Golden Pond is one movie that comes to mind first where Jane Fonda desperately still sought Norman, her fathers love and acceptance even though she was in her 40’s and had her own family.   She had been carrying this hurt within her, all her life.

deepest hurt everThe “hurt” or feeling that a parent doesn’t love you completely is probably the deepest hurt anyone can feel.  Marriages, boyfriends, and girlfriends come and go.  They can be replaced.   But you only have one set of parents and there is never a re-do!    The love and acceptance of a parent is of the deepest and most important relationship all people have.  You can’t change this, it is always there within you!

I only blog about this because someday I hope to be a dad. And I will be an amazing dad! No matter what, some bonds, some love’s, are inseparable and unbreakable!

Please love your children “no matter what”!

EZ