Who says persistence doesn’t pay off!
Before I get into our conversation many of you must be wondering who the heck is EarthZebra Blog to have scored such an amazingly sought after interview?! Well, I am just as surprised as all of you, except for one thing. Okay, maybe a few…Ha!
I am a very nice person, with no axe to grind, no agenda, not wanting anything! I am understanding, caring, and someone that most people have always felt very comfortable with. All through my life people have come to me for guidance and my unique ability to solve problems and put life in context and perspective! Hey, go me!
I was able to find Casey through the internet which I won’t go into saying exactly how!! But it wasn’t as hard as you would think. I’ve always been good at that. I can find anyone! I didn’t know Casey prior to speaking with her over these past few months.
Interviewing Casey and getting to know her has proven to be an emotional journey for me, as well as her. Perhaps this is why she agreed to me posting it. The questions were not always easy to answer for her and not always easy for me to ask to be honest. She and I both shed tears, and talked at length about spirituality, human nature, why certain people did certain things, how she felt when it was happening, why human beings can be so cruel, the unwritten things of life, and what the weather was like on the days we talked. We covered it all and became friends in the process.
Casey and I have agreed that the “interview” should be as much about her as it is about me and the process of us talking about things……for every journey is a journey for all on it.
There is no one answer, or perspective, in the truth. The truth comes from exploring feelings, options, different takes on what looks to be so clear, but when ripped apart we find the raw truth is not so black and white. “Truth” in fact is only as strong and credible as the past experiences that, that person is basing and comparing that one truth too!
Casey believes that “her truth” was the absolute complete truth because it was her moccasins that had walked the mile before and all truths are based on! I tend to agree. One of Casey’s and my favorite movies is ‘Miracle On 34’th Street’! (The black and white version, not the color)! lol. Where the attorney for Kris Kringle argued that if he believed himself to be Santa Clause then who is to argue that fact? You believe you be to yourself and no-one questions you. So, who is to questions Kris Kringle. His truth is his truth based on his path in life which no-one but he has experienced. Only he knows what is the truth and only Casey knows what is the truth.
Needless to say we covered some pretty deep stuff in our conversations and I am proud to say that we are friends first, and always.
Here is the very first Casey Anthony post-trial interview…an EarthZebra Blog exclusive! Copyright © EarthZebra Blog 2011. All Rights Reserved. Permission for reprint or broadcast in full or in part, is NOT AUTHORIZED without prior written consent!
CASEY SPEAKS PART 1: INTERVIEW WAS CONDUCTED OVER SEVERAL MONTHS AND THE BELOW IS ONLY A FEW SELECTED QUESTIONS THAT CASEY AND I AGREED TO BE THE FIRST TO BE RELEASED TO THE PUBLIC. MAYBE MORE RELEASES TO COME, MAYBE NOT!
EARTHZEBRA: Hi Casey, how are you today?
CASEY: Good, thank you, and you?
EARTHZEBRA: Good, first I want to thank you for allowing my blog to be your first interview of you since the verdict. Can I ask why you are allowing me to interview you?
CASEY: Well, over the last little while we have gotten to know each other and I trust you will accurately and fairly tell my words as I say them.
EARTHZEBRA: Thank you, and yes I will.
CASEY: Good, what’s your first question?
EARTHZEBRA: What is your greatest regret and the one thing you’d do differently over this whole ordeal if you could go back in time and do something different?
CASEY: Wow, that’s a hard one because in hind-site I have many regrets. I’d say the top one would have been to dial 911 right away when I saw my dad carrying Caylee in his arms after being pulled from the pool. At that point in time, I was living a life that was on a merry-go-round without any clarity within myself about anything. I was so messed up on the inside about the constant battle of trying to be myself versus who my family expected me to be. My family expectations always was pushing me in different directions that resulted in me making some very poor decisions. I called my mom at work a bunch of times at that moment but fate and dad took over from there and there was no turning back once we started together down that road. I regret I didn’t handle that moment differently at the time.
EARTHZEBRA: I can’t imagine, but would like to try and understand in that crazy, intense, awful moment when you realized Caylee had drowned, what was happening within you and around you?
CASEY: I’m not sure how much I honestly remember now. It was such a devastating moment in my life. In the beginning I replayed it over and over in my head daily in my cell. But now with everything else, it’s hard for me to recall. I do remember waking up like any other day, going into Caylee’s room where she is usually playing when I get up, and not being able to find her there or anywhere in the house. Dad wasn’t there either so I figured they were together. I poured a cup of coffee and walked to the backyard to see if they were there. I saw dad over by the pool and then Caylee in his arms. But you asked about the feeling. It was slow motion. No sound. It was like a brick wall hitting me head on. Not me running into the brick wall, but the brick wall running into me. I was just numb, hysterical when we couldn’t revive Caylee. We both tried. After that moment I don’t remember much. I was numb. I know dad went and got some of Caylee’s clothes and a blanket. Mom wouldn’t pick up her phone. I don’t remember. I don’t want to talk about this.
EARTHZEBRA: No problem. Different topic. I’m sorry to have taken you there…..
CASEY: It’s okay.
EARTHZEBRA: A happier subject…your future! What do you dream of? What is the vision of your future?
CASEY: I’m not so sure how happy my future is going to be but whatever it is, it’s going to be quiet, and private. I’d like to meet my best friend, and fall in love with an amazing man who is accepting and understanding of my past. I’d like to have a family. Some dogs, and maybe bunnies or something. lol Animals give you unconditional love, so lots of animals. Who knows, right now I’m just taking it one day at a time trying to understand my past, accept my present, and dream of my future. I know it will all work out according to gods plan. I am blessed.
EARTHZEBRA: How is your relationship with your family right now?
CASEY: I’d rather not say. Just that they are all safe and healthy is enough for me for now. Time heals all wounds as they say.
EARTHZEBRA: The Prosecutor Jeff Ashton has a new book out, have you read it? Will you?
CASEY: Nope. Couldn’t care less. It amazes me all the hypocrites out there. They yell, Justice for Caylee, and then without missing a step try to make a buck off of me and off of Caylee dying. It’s sickening. It’s blood money and god will be their judge. I could never contribute to the financial gain of anyone who tries to profit off of me or my daughter.
EARTHZEBRA: Your attorneys are being called by some a “Dream Team”, what do you have to say about that?
CASEY: I agree wholeheartedly!! Jose and Cheney are brilliant men. They have not been given enough credit for the amazing strategy and presentation of the showing the jury the evidence. There was an entire team with many attorneys and everyone together are the absolute best attorneys in the world. I dearly love them all.
EARTHZEBRA: How do you spend your days, these days?
CASEY: I’m trying to make life as normal as I can. Whatever normal is. You have to remember I was in a box no bigger than your bathroom for 23 hours a day so anything other than that is a great thing. Sometimes I cry just looking out into the back here seeing the sky and trees, hearing the birds, breathing fresh air. You can’t appreciate freedom truly until you have lost it. I usually get up and make some oatmeal, drink coffee and read the paper. I work out for about an hour each day. You’d be surprised when your confined to a little space how it effects your muscles and cardio. I’m taking online classes now so after my work out I’ll log on and listen to that days lecture, and start on the homework. So far, so good, I’m really enjoying school. After that I might fix some fruit or hummus and avocado sandwich. It’s good, really! lol My afternoons is when I sometimes go for a ride, just driving around. I never get out of the car unless I’m way away from any people and sometimes I’ll get out and just lay in the grass looking up at the clouds and sky and talk to my Caylee and God. Nights are pretty much TV and writing in my diary. That’s pretty much it. Quiet. Peaceful. Full of dreams and hope.
CASEY: Oh god, it was a hot mess in the trial! lol. But thanks. The hard part was they wouldn’t give me any scissors to cut it or allow anyone to come into the jail to cut it so I just let it grow. I had to do the best I could with bobby pins and clips. All those photos should have a disclaimer on them, girl wasn’t provided proper grooming tools! lol.
EARTHZEBRA: LOL, too funny! It’s good that you have reached a place where some of the things that happened to you, you can laugh about. Are you at a good place and can laugh at some of the things or are you putting on a brave face and just coping?
CASEY: I suppose a little of both. I’m a survivor and when a person is put in extreme situations you kinda just deal with it best you can because there is nothing else you can do. Some things like hair, and funny things that happened behind the scenes can be laughed at. Other things that people did and said are a bit more difficult to accept. I’m working on this with my therapist and over time will have a clear understanding of motivations. Actually, you EarthZebra are the one who told me this which is so true: Rip apart your past and understand it, then know where you are at present, and only then can you see your future. Thank you for those words, they will stay with me on this journey.
EARTHZEBRA: You are welcome.
EARTHZEBRA: Honestly I don’t have too much more to ask you. Can we do this again sometime? A Part 2?
EARTHZEBRA: Well, thank you Casey. I really appreciate you allowing me to ask you some questions and blog them. I’ve enjoyed our conversations and hope they continue, as friends.
CASEY: Me too. And Yes, to your other question. 🙂
EARTHZEBRA: Have a great night! xoxo
CASEY: U too. xo
————-End Interview PART 1—————
And that is the first interview. I’ll let is speak for itself.
I would very much like to thank Casey for her time and giving the interviews. There are several other interview installments that might be posted. She and I agreed on the above to be Part 1.
First and foremost I think of Casey as a friend and would never do anything to cause her harm or think poorly of me. It’s been fun. Thanks!
Copyright © EarthZebra Blog 2011. All Rights Reserved. Permission for reprint or broadcast in full or in part, is NOT AUTHORIZED without prior written consent!