Worn Down Mentally and Physically
I think I am at that point. The point where you are tired mentally and physically.
Maybe it has something to do with my recent trip to a relatives house for Christmas family hello’s, which the dog pee’d on my boots soon after my arrival. Maybe it has something to do with living in minus -21F weather that I currently reside in. Maybe it has something to do with the sun going down at 3:46PM each day in this northern winter hell and I’m lacking vitamin E. Maybe it has to do with on all fronts everyone crumbling around me while I remain strong!
In any event, whatever the cause, the point is I’m just darn tired. Christmas and New Years 2010 good reddens! Gone forever!
It could be that no one reads my blog and the stress of coming up with entertaining things for all of none of you is just too much for me right now!
A few days ago, some people skid’d off the road and into a frozen lake nearby and died. I was just there, driving that same road, curve, spot, a few weeks ago. This has frightened my family to the core, so much so, that they do not want me to drive the car alone without a pre-approved planned route with strict time-lines of my return. Truth be told, I’m kinda [Insert Disturbed feeling word here] about driving anywhere now!
I am not happy here. Honestly I don’t know why, how, when, where, who, or any other blaming thing to list. There are so many wonderful things to be so happy about. No, I’m not going to list them because I choose to be unhappy!
Perhaps that is it.
“Happiness is what we Make of Life”, a Moron said This!